So it’s the first day of 2012, and I’m sitting in a random coffee shop in the middle of the french quarter in New Orleans. I’ve been without internet for an excruciating, 7 days. Needless to say, being able to listen to music and surf the web feels like the most amazing thing in the whole world right now.
Anyhow, every year I try to do this “end of the year wrap up” post… and this year is no different. The only thing about 2011 is that I don’t really remember much of it. Maybe my memory is seriously starting to disintegrate or I just blocked a lot of stuff out, or maybe just a bit of both. I had to go through my blog posts from 2011 just to remember what happened. As I was going through them, I realized… damn, 2011 was a rough one. It was filled with confusion, heart ache, and loss. But as history goes in my life… with all the heart break comes renewal.
The hardest parts of 2011 surrounded my friends and family. I lost too many loved ones. I lost friendships with people I never thought I would lose. I lost respect towards one of my mentors… a man I trusted who I realize now, never deserved it. And finally, I lost my beloved Lola. Spending my first Christmas without her was painful to say the least. It’s hard to look at a photo of her without crying. Even as I type, I’m trying to hold back the tears.
But with all the struggles also came the triumphs. In 2011, I stood my ground and refused to settle (even if I wanted to at times)… and I’m so glad I didn’t. Life would not be as fulfilling as it is right now if I had. I think the most influential event that happened in 2011 (other than my Lola’s passing) is meeting “the boy”. Well…it’s more like “re-meeting” him. It’s only been three months but there’s just some things you know in your bones to be true… and I’ll just leave it at that ;)
So here’s to 2011… Nice knowing you. 2012… I’m ready.
"Women who seek to be equal with men, lack ambition."
- Timothy Leary
"Behind every great woman, is herself."
